thoughts

i want to write a story. so i am going to try and write a story. but first i'm gonna write all of it then post a chapter a blog. who knows how long that will take but someday it will happen. so there

This too shall pass

Three nights ago my little sister-in-law died. I have known her less than most people in her family. but i have seen the amazing lives that she has touched. If you didn't know her, i'm sorry but that is your loss. she didn't live any kind of spectacular life, it was sad to watch her some time. but she did it. everyday she woke up and did little artst crafty things or maybe watched a movie or animal planet. she still did, she fought with a disease that basically left her life really meaningless. on the surface anyway. in the last couple days i have spent a lot of time with my wife's family, and i realized that Kaylynn (my sister in law, not my daughter) kept that family together. she was the reason her mom woke up every morning @ 4 to set up all of the pills she had to take. to me i am not sad because she is gone and i truly loved her like my own sister. as cliche as it sounds, i know she is with God. i honestly believe that not everyone goes to Heaven. but i know that even though she might not have been mentally able to comprehend the gospel. God shows his mercy and takes in people in her situation. i'm sad for everyone who she left behind. it is so absolutely heart breaking to see her mom break down in tears over the loss of her youngest daughter, i can't even imagine the pain of losing my daughter. i miss her a lot. i used to play cards with her when she would come stay with us. we shared the same birthday so i feel like she was really special to me. I miss you Kaylynn and everyone longs to see you again.

Touched

by Steve

Did i ever tell you that you're my sunshine

my day is brighter when you're by my side

and i long to see your beautiful face

when i reach the end of this race for you

i found you where the least have known

where you touched my heart and you touched my soul

oh God i need you now

i know she's by your side

looking down on those she left behind

God please hold her close and promise me this

if one did thing last, it'd be our one last kiss goodbye

did i ever tell you that you're my gold

more precious to me when you're young or old

i miss you, wanna kiss you

wish i could hold your hand right now

i found you where the least have known

where you touched my heart and you touched my soul

oh God i need you now

i know she's by your side

looking down on those she left behind

God please hold her close and promise me this

if one did thing last, it'd be our one last kiss goodbye

did i ever tell you that you're my rainbow

you make my pain go away

so please don't be sad for me

can't wait to see you that day

i found you where the least have known

where you touched my heart and you touched my soul

oh God i need you now

i know she's by your side

looking down on those she left behind

God please hold her close and promise me this

if one did thing last, it'd be our one last kiss goodbye