God, music, sex, drugs, and booze

so alot of the time i find myself endlessly indulging in my Wikipedia addiction. well i today i searched for "contemporary christian music" and it had a little sub point about the controversy with this kind of music in some modern churches. It said that some churches didn't like the idea of having these kind of songs(not always hymns) played during their services because they associate it with rock and roll music. Basically because it can be played on a mainstream radio station it must have anything and everything to do with sex,  drugs, alcohol, and other forms of debotchery. Well i think that is a huge load of crap. First off God's love isn't exclusive, its extended to all of mankind. Whether it is returned is another story. But His love is for everyone, the addicts, the drug dealers, prostitutes, the children, the poor, the rich, the dirty and the clean. It really pisses me off to see such  hypocrisy in our world. During Christ's time on earth he spent his time at parties with prostitutes and tax collectors. it makes me think of how this relates to us today. At my job i work with a lot of gay people. I don't think homosexuality is the way God intended us to be. But things like prop 8 (which in all its complications i agree with). I don't want my little daughter to grow up in a world of  sin where homosexuality is the norm. i don't think it is. but on the other hand, if u have a vote yes on Prop 8 bumper sticker on the back of your car and a gay person sees that i think they would feel like you absolutely hate them. i don't hate the gay people that i work with. in fact, i would call some of them my friends. they are maybe nicer(in the world's eyes,  they "good people") people than some straight people i know. but in my mind i guess that doesn't change the fact of what God has told me that they are living in sin. I fight with myself in my head about this a lot. How can i be against sin, when i feel that hating sin makes me hate the sinful. i get uncomfortable at work sometimes when guys talk about some girl that they want to have sex with. i'm like how can you show absolutley no respect for that women. For another human being for that matter. Some of these guys are married and have kids and all they talk about is their next screw. I feel like they have no respect for anyone but themselves. They sure don't care about their wives, their kids, and they damn sure don't care about the girl they want. This world makes me so sick sometimes...longest rant (i mean blog) ever...

the day after yesterday

so yesterday was my birthday. it was pretty good. i chilled at home with Kayj till Kristina got home. then kristina's mom babysat for us. We went down to the valencia mall cuz we both had $100 gift cards to macy's so we wanted to spend them. Now Macy's has this machine that sells like ipod, zunes, dvds, and video game stuff. And i had intended to buy a new ipod touch. we look around and finally find this super vending machine and its sold out of ipod touch's. so i was kinda bummed but decided i'd sell my gift card to my mom and go get a touch from best buy. but we kept shopping and then we went to claimjumpers. It was pretty nice, the one in santa clarita is way nicer than the one in palmdale. got some grub, got a little booze, got a lot of dessert(very provacative desserts to say the least). and then we went home. so yeah it was a pretty fun bday, nothing big or anything. my mom bought me a long board, which i took out today. i was seriously like a little kid with a new bike. i rode around rosamond for like an hour or so. it felt really good, and tiring. so yeah thats my new form of exercise. please don't hit with your car if u see me on the side of the road. i'm gonna go to best buy and circuit city tomorrow to look for an ipod. so i'm very much looking forward to tomorrow. so....yeah....i'm out

-(steve)

Somethings that havent died yet

so yeah, i just remembered i had this blog. so its been like six months since i last posted. Well lots have changed in six months, sort of. Well as of august i switched to working days at the warehouse i work in. and as of this month i had to switch back to working nights, which sucks. Kayj is 16 months or now, for the mathematically challenged that means she is a few months over 1 year old. which i think is pretty friggin cool. Yeah she does the whole toddler thing now; walks, talks nonsense, dances, gets really pissed off, and is even starting potty training. But yeah other than her and work, not much is new. My b-day is tomorrow and i'm pretty stoked about that. Me and the wife are just going to claimjumpers and the valencia mall. Yeah, the big 22. peace out

this has not been profitable...

I have no idea how to post this on my myspace, so people can check out my blog. so for now these blogs are for me, and me talking to myself essentially. Kayj is asleep. I'm trying to put music on my ever problematic ipod. But i love it still. The wife should be home soon and we'll kick it. I've written almost three new songs in the last week. Very exciting. i m hoping to get together with my band and practice and record in my makeshift studio soon. i'm out of words...word

-(steve)

so this is it...

So i'm sitting here. and my little girl (Kayj) is taking a nap. She doesn't feel good. Parenting is hard. Not like school hard, like seriously a person's life is in your hands hard. Oh by the way, i'm (steve) i'm twenty one, i have a strange life. I met my girlfriend at 16, got my first tat at 18, got married at 19, had a kid at 20, and moved into a nice house with my wife and girl just before i turned 21. Lifes can chaotic some time. But right now my girls asleep and my wife left for work. I'm grey's anatomy, i have a sick obsession with a show that i think is made for chicks. Oh well. they're going to do surgery on a woman whose having quintuplets. madness i says. This is what i do with my days off. I actually enjoy life right now. I'm tired most of the time luckily i am a Rockstar addict because of it. But thats alright. I wish i could spend more time with every person in my life. I will soon... for now this is ok